Look, this story isn't pretty, and it may hurt some people's feelings, but I've held this in for over 20 years, too afraid to speak, too afraid to truly look at myself. Through the last couple of years, I've had to face my past in order to move forward. After my marriage, I really had to sit with myself. I had to find myself, and really it was a string I partially wish I never tugged on. As I reflected on my patterns, I also had to look at why I keep doing this. The unfortuna