No matter how much I followed some Wiccan beliefs, I could never truly let go of God and the church, and this was a huge struggle for me. Not only was I having a child out of wedlock, I didn't even know for sure who the father was. I hid my pregnancy for as long as I could. I even drank fake liquor with my pregnant cousin, hoping no one would know. By morning everyone knew. Then the speculation began. I had people questioning who his father was everywhere, and every time I ha

We all had dreams most of them revolved around the Canadian Armed forces and I was just as determined to lose enough weight, and build enough muscle to breeze through basic. I was going to be an aircraft mechanic whether everyone around me liked it or not. I’m guessing that wasn't part of the divine's plans because during a training session I damaged my lower back. I was 18 years old and I was going to have back pain for life. I did Physio, and massage therapy. Between the tw

The first year of high school was not what I would call fun. I wasn’t what you would call a feminine woman, I was plus size, but with the way I was built I never felt feminine. I was already in the cadet system at this point, lived in uniforms or olive drab. My interests were tearing apart engines, riding sleds, hiking & camping.  I was a tomboy through and through. On the other side Blues Music, and the bagpipes. I read voraciously. I loved to dance and just feel the music